I am not the content of my consciousness, I am not the thoughts and emotions that arise in my consciousness, I Am the
consciousness–itself. I Am the aliveness of the consciousness. I am able to look at the thoughts and the emotions that arise in
consciousness. That part of me that can look at my thoughts is my aliveness looking at my ego’s content. I am not that content. I am the larger entity in which the ego emerges. I call that larger entity the self as a way of differentiating it from the ego.
The Self is a greater consciousness than the activities of the ego. Moreover, much to our delight, the ego can be witnessed by the Self, by the greater consciousness. It is in this witnessing of the ego by the Self that we become aware to the concept of the duality in the human psyche. If I can say with some conviction, “I am so mad at myself,” I am witnessing that there is an “I” observing the “Self,” an “I” which is mad at a separate object which is the Self.
I AM alive and present in this moment.
I AM the persistent awakening, that comes from an abandonment of identification with thoughts and with opinions and with feelings. I have to abandon identifying with the content of the ego in order to experience My self.
We are not talking about a denial of affect, but rather, about a keen awareness of thought & feeling, followed by a Consciousness that although these sensations arise in me, these sensations are not me. They are not me any more than the obsessive ramblings of a narcissistic mind is me. A deceptively simple but definitive advance in analytic thinking came about when the concept of the Self as separated from the ego was born. The ego and its location in the psychic apparatus along with the id and the super-ego constitute the location or the psychic place in which the identity is created and maintained. Thought & feeling emanate from here. But Consciousness is greater than what arises in it. I Am the consciousness in which the ego arises.
This duality of identity within the mind of the human being is either the source of great joy or the source of tremendous consternation and conflict. Because as long as we are not aware of this duality, the ego has nearly total control of our thoughts, our actions and more importantly maintains a deep and complete identification with these thoughts and feelings as if these are the totality of us. In this condition the human mind remains “contained” in the ego and this containment is the source of great narcissistic injuries as the individual passes through life thinking that he or she is the sum total of his or her thoughts. The danger in this narrow vision is that we begin to protect our thoughts as is they were us and in so doing we enter into conflict not only with Others, but we remain conflicted with the greater potential that remains untapped, unknown, undiscovered. In other words, the Self is hidden or more accurately disconnected from the ego and it exerts no influence in our lives. We conduct ourselves “as-if” we are our egos. As such, we wander through life with this life size cardboard cut-out of ourselves in front of us and leading at all times. Our ego becomes a persona of us and the Self and its magnificent connection with all sentient life is missed.
The very witnessing of this duality is the opening in the wall, the crack in the narcissistic shell, the glimpse that allows us to eventually experience the eternal, cosmic stillness, the ethos from which The Creator manifests through you.