This morning was a sweet october morn. I got up early enough to fill my mind with empty space before even brewing the coffee & I was able to find the stillness that often hides behind the defense of the ego so throughly that I can not find the still spot. But that was not the case this morning. I awoke long before the alarm and I spent at least a half hour in my journal. I tried to write on the computer in this blog but I encountered technical difficulties so i abandoned that idea quickly…I know how little frustration it takes to know me off my pins. So I did not proceed with any idea that held any amount of frustration. That was my morning gift to myself and it worked out very nicely.
When I am able to manage the continuous stream of consciousness-language that is the backdrop of my mind, I am able to feel like I can do anything. I begin to experience myself as a part of a greater universe and my role is to function well. I do not need to accomplish, I simply need to function. The movement away from outcome brings me to an affinity with process that I have always been identified with. Under the spell of interbeing, I am able to get on with my day without the fears brought about by my ego that can act hysterically like an abandoned child.